I'm baaaaaaaack!

“Ignorance is bliss” is a saying that I used to believe. Lately, I'm really not getting into that, so let me just go out and say it...

My mother signed a contract with the military for the next 8 years, and she will be leaving our family for the next 4 months this Sunday.

Before you say anything or even think, just imagine: how would you feel if your father was in Iraq and your mother was going off to basic training to go to Iraq? I feel scared, shocked, annoyed and proud. I've been used to being away from one of my parents at one time or another, but both? Never have both of my parents been away from our family for a long period of time. And it's not even me that is sad either, I have a 10-year-old brother and a 15-year-old sister that are going to miss their mother.

Now, we've known that my mother was going to be going away to basic training for the last month because that was when she signed her contract. The thing that annoys me is that her recruiters lied to her. They PROMISED my mother that she wasn't going to be leaving until August, giving her enough time to see her oldest off to college and get her two younger children ready for their next grade of school. Those bastards told her the reason why she was signing the contract so quickly was so that she could save her spot in the specialty training that she wanted. She signed, and for the last month, they have been telling her that she just has to suck it up and leave. How wonderful is our Army? They're not. Don't believe one damn thing that they say. ALWAYS get it in writing.

The moral of the story is don't trust your government workers. Many of them aren't jerks and do want to help, but with that, there are some true jerks out there that I'm really ready to get rid of. If they lied to her now, they are going to lie to her again and again. My dad was promised more leave time a long while back, but have we seen him around the house for more than a couple weeks? No, we have not. In all honesty, I've only seen him for about 1 whole month within the last 4 years that he's been Iraq. He was allowed two weeks for every year of service that he served in Iraq, but they don't ever make good on what they allow. Does that sound fair? Does it? Shouldn't his three children have a chance to spend some time with their father that is more than 2 weeks a year (if that)?!

I think that they should. We should have had more time with our mom. I'm going to be going off to college all by myself, scared as hell. I had plans set up for the summer, but you can guess that I had to cancel them. My grandmother will be by part time to help us out with things that we may need, and that relieves me. It's always nice to have help!

There are just some things that you just have to accept, though. My father signed up in the military 18 years ago and as soon as he gets home in December, he'll be packing up all of the stuff at our abode in Alamosa and relocating it to Germany. This is so comforting because over the next 3 years, my brother, sister and father will be together on base in Germany. I know that they will have their father to take care of them. I really don't know about my mother though. None of us do really. They promised her at least 2 years in Germany before she can be deployed to Iraq, but in her orders that we received today, it says that she'll be leaving only 6 months after she finishes basic training. >=(

My mother has always wanted to join the Army, but was never able to because she was pregnant with me. I am very proud of her that she is finally able to achieve a goal of hers, but she should have been able to do it when she felt ready. She broke down yesterday, crying to me about how she is being selfish and how her priorities should have changed now that she has children. I let her know that I fully support her decision, and there is nothing that better hold her back. Today, she told me that I was an inspiration, just for being able to give her confidence when she felt hopeless. Her exact words after that were,

“I am so proud that you came from me, and could be so amazing. I wish that I had your happiness and strength.”

To think that my mother, with whom my relationship is very good with, will be leaving my family within the next few days is gut-wrenching. It's reliving the first time that my father left us for Iraq. I hope that no one ever has to feel that way. War tears family apart, and the Army doesn't give a care about it at all.

I don't need sympathies. I don't need to talk. This is all that I needed to say, got my frustration out. It always feels good to tell your best support system what's truthfully going on in your life. Over the next 4 months, I'm going to be mother, father, brother and guardian to my siblings, and I'm going to have fun with it. Tomorrow, I get a debit card to my parent's bank account, and I get to fix up the budget system that we'll be following. This is great training for my days at university!

“Make the best of any situation” will always remain to be my motto. You must do the best with what you've got. So, you who is reading this, take something from this and look at the bright side of everything!

Ever since I was younger, my parents always taught the importance of family. So, I'm going to be strong for my family, to infinity and beyond. Thank you for taking the time to read about my recent (and actually only) woe in life. It means the world to me that I have somewhere to go where I can cheer others up and can count on others to cheer me up. You all are the best. I mean that from each cell in my body.

I feel musically defeated tonight. I've been listening to as much random music as I can find in my library as we speak. One minute it's “Cabaret” by Cold War Kids; the next, it's “She Moves In Her Own Way” by the Kooks. I haven't listened to these songs in months. I really need to start listening to them more. Hmm...

I'm watching Alec Baldwin's biography on the television, and it is amazing how he has changed. He was such an attractive man in the 1980s. He has always been such an amazing actor. He has evolved so wonderfully, and I just adore his comedic charm that he brings to the table on 30 Rock. Him and Tina Faye are a duet made in heaven (or hell, maybe?). They just click so wonderfully! It's refreshing to see a good cast on a show that isn't a sitcom.

“Isn't She Lovely?” by Stevie Wonder playing now. God, I love this song.

I miss sitcoms. Friends, Will & Grace and Just Shoot Me should still be going. They each had dynamic casts; there was always someone that you could connect with. That's what was brilliant about them. You could get into them and follow your favorite. So much reality on the TV these days... It sickens me. Don't get me wrong! There are a few good shows that I love that are reality shows, but I just wish that there wasn't so much. Whatever happened to staged romance?! Whatever happened to repetitive plot lines?! WHATEVER HAPPENED TO GOOD ACTORS/ACTRESSES?! I wish that we could go back to the days where there was good acting. The days when life was all about Marcia, Marcia, Marcia!, when Blanche, Dorothy, Sophia and Rose were talking about their late night happenings, WHEN JOANIE LOVED CHACHI!!! I miss those to bits and bits. We really need to bring some of those back, honest. We should petition to bring back the good shows. Anyone with me?

“La Noyee” by Yann Tiersen. From the film Amelie. It's a fab film if you haven't seen it before. You'll get a kick out of it.

GO ENTER THE MTV MOVIE AWARDS CONTEST!!! I WANT TO SEE YOUR SPOOFS, AND I WANT TO SEE YOU ON TV!!! Seriously, if I could get one of my friends on TV, I would be staring at the television from two inches away, looking at you. Not that I'm weird or anything like that, but it'd be something that I'd be proud of. Not really sure why, either. I just really think that there are some creative people out there, and I'd love to see what you come up with spoof-wise.

I gave a call to the Buzznet Inc. offices wishing them a week of joy for all that they do. I sure hope that whomever hears it spreads it to everyone, and they all feel great this week for doing their job so smoothly. Gotta love the staff here; it's like no where else!

Wow. Sounds like I'm kissing serious ass. I'm honestly not, just hopefully trying to make people that run this place smile for a moment. >_O

So, I'm tired and felt like talking about television and Buzznet stuff. Also, the fact that I am feeling creative tonight is doing wonders for my pencil and paper. I like to draw. : )

Peace out! I'll be up for about three more hours, and then, I'm out. : )

w00t! “Gay Bar” by Electric Six is on now. The perfect way to end a journal.

I'm off to dance and sing and repeat every scene from the musical Cabaret!

Have an AMAZING week!!  Remember, IT'S ALL YOURS; OWN IT!!!

"The World I Like"
By: Jim Ortega

"The world I like is the place I live.
There are candies on the table when I get home.
There are dogs and cats in my house.
There are lots of things on TV to watch when I walk through my door.

The world I like is the sounds I hear.
There are noises that my brother makes when he snores.
There are noises from my pets when they bark and meow.
There are noises coming from the shower when I turn it on.

The world I like is the life I see.
There are bees at home, and I am allergic.
There are toys all around my room.
There are sodas in my fridge I like to drink when I see them.

This is the world I like."

So, this is my Word Play entry for the task, and I've been meaning to post for a bit. This was an assignment for one of his classes. He was supposed to do three little poems and put them together, each of them had to follow the same pattern, as shown in the poems.

My brother wrote these/this a while back, and I asked him to sit down and analyze this with me. He said that the place where is he lives is where he likes to "do what is fun". The first part of the poem consists of things that he does all the time when he gets home. He eats candies, he plays with the animals and watches the television. I tried to analyze further, and all that I can really think of is the fact that maybe he is looking into the aesthetics of life. There are simple things that he mentioned throughout the whole poem that are just simple pleasures that many of us treasure.

Moving onto the next portion, he talks about what he hears. He has always had a hearing problem since he was born, but lately, he has really been able to hear quite well, which pleases everyone. He said that he likes hearing everything, even my snoring (seeing as our rooms are next door to each other). I genuinely think that he chose to talk about hearing because he treasures it. None of us may never know what being deaf is like, but my brother sure got close and isn't going to take it for granted again!

The next part talks about what he sees. Pretty much, he was just being really random with these, he said. This reminds me of the spirit of youth. If you think about it, when you were 10, chances are you were just as off-beat or random as that last one. It's the naivety that just puts a smile on my face. Sort of makes you want to rekindle the spirit that you had for childhood.

The final line is what made me think the most. Is this what the world of a 10-year-old is like? And he likes it? Why would he just talk about these when he could mention so much more? So many questions arose, but I sort of like to think that I was like that as a kid. Just loving the little world that I lived in, not concerned with the special, but in love with the normal. : )

Hope this is good enough for you, Savannah!

*hugs to all*

Here's what you do:

Pick a word or phrase that decribes yourself starting with A and then B and so on then tag 5 others.

Agreeable

Boob

Confused

Deformation

Egregious

Fancy

Gore

Hip

Italicized

John

Knot

Leader

Miniscule

Normal

Ortega

Pickled

Queen

Righteous

Sleepy

Tricky

Umbrella (ay, ay, ay)

V-chipped

Word

X-rayed

Yellow

Zipper

WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?!

I have been dying to get this off of my chest, and now I finally can: I HATE WENDY NOTSID!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the hell makes her so great?! Is it her perfect smile? Hmm? Is it her endless amount of wit? Hmm?! TELL ME, BUZZNET!!!! WHO THE HELL DOES SHE THINK SHE IS!?!?!

DAMN HER!!! Always making fantastically written journals that always have a point being conveyed across!!! ALWAYS!!! Even if it may be my most favorite thing in the world!!

NO! I HATE HER WITH ALL OF MY BEING!!!!

I ALMOST WANT TO PICK UP A GUN AND SHOOT MY COMPUTER WHEN SHE ISN'T ONLINE TO TALK TO ME!!!! I GET SO FRUSTRATED WHEN SHE ISN'T ON THAT I PRETEND WHAT CONVERSATIONS WOULD BE LIKE WITH HER OUT LOUD! THANKS, WENDY!!! BECAUSE OF YOU, I WILL SOMEDAY HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITIES: ONE BEING NAMED JOHN AND THE OTHER BEING NAMED WENDY!!!

Does she really need to be as cool as she is? Honestly. She puts half of the world to shame with her music tastes, opinionated ways and ingenius remarks about anything. HOW THE HELL CAN ONE PERSON BE SO DAMN INTELLECTUAL?!?!

I'll tell you how... WENDY NOTSID HAS LIVED FOREVER!!!!!

No. I'm being completely serious here.

You know when Jesus was born? SHE WAS THERE!!!!!!!

You remember all of those predictions that Nostradamus made? Well, you wouldn't because that was HUNDREDS OF YEARS AGO, but WENDY WAS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

What about when Britney met Kevin Federline, the beginning of the world's end? WENDY WITNESSED THE UNION FIRSTHAND!!!!

Sure, don't believe me, but YOU CANNOT DENY THE PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

0 - Jesus was born

1555 - Nostradamus makes predictions

2004 - When Britney met K-Fed and started the beginning of the apocalypse

SHE HAS BEEN THERE AND DONE THAT!!!!!!! Do you want to know how she has stayed alive all this time??

SHE EATS BABIES!!!!!! (En francais = "Elle manges des bebes!!!")

The blood of babies restores her youth and increases her intelligence!  If this keeps up, we'll never be able to contain her brilliance!!  NEVER!!  The quality of her journals will increase, rending everyone else's helpless.  Her personality as the wholesome person that she already is will just continue to grow, and soon SHE WILL BE THE GREATEST PERSON KNOWN TO THE WORLD!!!

The point of this journal: I CANNOT STAND WENDY!!! DO YOUR PART TO KEEP KNOWLEDGE BEING TAUGHT AND NOT COMPLETELY DRAINED BY HER PRECIOUS HEAD, AND GO KILL A BABY TODAY!!!  TOGETHER, WE CAN WIPE INFANTS OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH, AND KILL HER LIFE FORCE BEFORE SHE GETS TOO AMAZING!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh, wait.  She already is the most amazing person on Earth. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There is no way to stop her now. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Everyone, get ready to be completely overwhelmed by how great she is.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I hate you, Wendy. I hate you.

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Psh. Love you more than my heart can handle, darling. *mwah* : )

I think that it's time that I get back into the synch of a schedule again.  So, I'm making some goals for the week.  Seriously, if you ever want to get organized, take the time on Sunday to make a list of goals you want to accomplish by the end of the week.  It's a very nice way to get organized.  : )

1. Commit To My Groups

I've sorta let myself down, writing less Buzznet Original suggestions for the OG group, doing less in my Genre Alternative group, seriously lacking in the Word Play group.  It's all good though!  I plan on getting into the forums like a mad fiend again, and making some headway.

I'd also like to point out the Buzznet Video Bloggers group to the world.  It's always great to go see vlogs, and if you have a video camera, make your way to the group and vlog your heart out!  I'll be partaking in the same as soon as my sickness smooths over.

2. Become A Posting Fool

I have quite a few photos and journals that I've been meaning to share, so I want to clear some of my desktop off and get it on here so that I can finally delete them!

Included in those things are photos from a few of my past things, more Buzznet Music History biographies, 9 ALBUM REVIEWS and a few random journals that I'm making for fun (because being serious all the time hurts).

3. Promote Happiness

Who didn't see this one coming?  ; )

Those are my goals, and I'm gonna fulfill 'em.  I have a doctor's appointment later today, but after that, I'll have a ton of things to post.

Much love!

Refreshed.  Sort of like in love for the first time?  I don't really know how to convey what I feel, but I do know that something is brewing inside, and I love it.

First off, I'd like to take a moment to get you to hopefully remember that you are human.  You make mistakes, and everyone around you loves you for the fact that you are just like them.  STOP thinking that you are alone, and REALIZE that you have people all around you that are willing to sit down and take time to chat with you.  People care, and if you are so negative as to believe otherwise, I'm sorry that you feel that way.

Secondly, Pax and Funks are totally checking in on us!  I've never felt so thrilled!  I thought that they had disappeared, never to return again, but fate has other plans!  This is totally one of those "everything works out best in the end" kind of things.  Friends that I thought I would lose contact with have come back into my life, and it's wonderful.  Nothing is better than this feeling of complete...something.  Gah!  I really can't even type or think or anything right now.  Though, I haven't really been able to all day.  ; )

Yesterday, I got a message from one of my old friends from high school (sounds weird typing that).  Here are the contents of that email:

Hey There,
How's it going? Me? Life is peachy. Kinda dull though. No big deal. I miss hanging out with you. I need to send you a letter that is on one of my thank you notes. So umm I need to know your address so I can send it to you. Last May, I was unable to find you and my mom was impatient. Funny how we were in eighth grade at the same time and then you graduated before me. oh well its no big deal. You looked like you were doing well from well I saw you in your mom's car with that smile on your face. If you're wondering who the boy I was walking with that day, it was my brother.
I really hope you get this and write back. Its kinda lonely in my life without your humor and your knowledge of things. Remember in 9th grade when you chased me around the gym in walking fitness. The good times. We had the bad times too, like the day you threw up on my locker lol. I hear from your sister that you'll be going to Chicago, good for you. I'm proud. You were always my number 1 best friend. Even though you had your ups and downs. You were always smiling when I was around. Anyway, I hope I hear from you. Hopefully I see you in person again. If you send me a recent picture of you in the mail when you get my letter, then I'll send you one of me so that way we can have pictures of ourselves.
Well thats all for now. Hope I hear from you. See Ya.

This brought tears and so many emotions to my face when I read it.  I became so speechless.  I still don't know what to really say, except that I have a mission living and that is to make other people living happy.  Seriously, I can choose to bring hell, but we already have enough of that.  War, hunger, fights over celebrity marriages, the starvation of animals for art: WE DON'T NEED ANY MORE NEGATIVITY!!  It's going to be my life's ultimate mission to make people happy.

This break that I was on was EXACTLY what I needed.  I feel refreshed, through and through, and I want to share it with you.

Buzznet folk, Mr. Sunshine (made of rainbows and crack) is back and he isn't going to be stopping anytime soon!

Much love to everyone, from the bottom of my heart.  Honest, I love everyone!

As another day closes, I sit on the floor in front of my computer and I watch Golden Girls on Lifetime for an hour. Despite the fact that they are all re-runs and I have seen 'em all, I still get such a kick out of watching this show.

*sigh*

If I make to old age, I want to live a life like theirs. It would be a blast to just take over Bea Arthur's role, except for the fact that her mother lives with her. That part I can do without. *gets scared he's going to be 60 and his mother is living with him* I've been living way too much in my head. It's as though my words have left my mouth and flew straight into my head. I often have conversations with myself.

"Hey, why does the cashier keep looking you in the eye?"

"I don't know. Maybe she is just creepy. She has very pretty hair. And I love the name 'Dolores'."

"Yeah, Dolores is a great name! If you ever marry someone, they should be named Dolores, and you should get married in a run down New York church. It would be fun, and you'd have such a horrible honeymoon."

"Honeymoon's are lame. Her and I would probably just go sleep, and we could go to an arcade in the morning."

"Arcades are fun...bye, Dolores."

That's exactly how the conversation goes! I can't even manage to say 'hello' or 'goodbye' to anyone anymore. I look not for pity, I just wish to speak. Buzznet has been my mouth for the last year, and I think that I'm done speaking through here. =P

Now, I've already said I'm not leaving, but that doesn't mean that I can't ween myself and my conversational skills from here. Seriously, all I know how to do is be social here. I think that it's time bringing smiles to my little section of the world as much as I can. I'm going to do my best to spread my cheer here on Buzznet, but it's running me ragged (without me actually running), and I know that there is more that I can do with my time.

I guess that is my big announcement. When I first started writing this, I didn't think I'd have one, but I guess that I do.

As of late, I'm kind of changing everything. Going back to black, if you will.

In my new world full of patchouli incense, a fresh shaven head and ascension yoga, things are great. It has only been a couple days that I have been figuring out my roots and about a week of sickness that has already taught me to look at the bright side of everything. Not that I didn't already have that state of mind.

It is odd. I have been thinking of a relationship that I was in not too long ago, and it's hilarious at how things just seem to make sense all of a sudden. I mulled over and concluded, "you cannot have a tree without it's roots." That combination of words really set something off in me. I'm not quite sure how to think anymore, but what I do know that statement is true. If anything is to last, or even be properly created, it has to have roots! We all have roots: connect with yours and things will seem so much clearer for you. I've only just begun and already I've taken a load off of my mind. It's spectacular, and I recommend you all to try it. : )

To end this pointless blog, which 4 months ago I said that I despised, I leave you with a hug.

*hugs*

Consider me on half break, and take some time off for yourself. It can do wonders for yourself, physically and mentally.

Onward and upward, I suppose.  G'night.

Hair is a thing of the past.

P.S. - When cooking eggs, you can never go wrong with the sunny-side up! : ) (This reminded me of you, Bizarreland, as I was cooking some eggs this morning. ♥)