I'm baaaaaaaack!

Here is my reflection on the year 2007 for myself. I guess I just wanted to post this so that I may return to it in the future and remember things. That and I constantly have a fear that I'm going suffer from a horrible case of amnesia. This will help me get back on the right track if I do happen to forget about my life.

The beginning of this year was spectacular. I was discovering who my friends were, and what they were all about. I was trying to get over one of the worst relationships that I've ever had. On top of being hated left and right by anyone that wanted in, I saw Fall Out Boy in concert for the first time. When my friends and I got there, we waited in line, looked around for places to pee, noticed the lead singer of The Early November walk right by us, adored the bassist for Permanent Me, got pretty close to other people during New Found Glory's set, almost died before Fall Out Boy came on and Pete Wentz gave me a face. Then, I remember being grounded for an alleged ditching incident. It was never proven, which means it didn't happen.

The only thing that I can really remember about February was that 'Flanny' decided to leave me alone, which was such a blessing, and the majority of my friends had me isolated from our group, which gave me the motivation to live for myself. Infinity On High also helped by giving the small group of kids at my school that like Fall Out Boy, that tiny bit of hope that we won't start to hate them because it's "cool" to hate them. That is probably when I got extremely serious about giving up on a lot of people. Another memory is when Spellbinders had a Valentine's Day meeting, and I found out that no one really cares about Valentine's Day at all. It's strictly a commercial holiday.

My good pal, Samantha, mentioned something about me joining track so that she wouldn't have to do it alone in our Speech class. At the time, I was joking when I said, "Alright," but I actually thought about it seriously and my decision was that I was going to do it. During Spring Break, I had to be up each morning at 5:30 am to get to practice by 6:00 am, and I'd run until about 7:30 am. I used to go home and pass out for the whole rest of the day. It was brutal, and I remember making up so many excuses to get out of it.

This month was a blur. I remember that I had to stay afterschool each day from 3:30 pm to 4:00 pm to get my online Government classes done. Right after a class was finished for the day, I'd run outside and warm-up for Track. Ew! There is a journal that I wrote at the start of April that I just read, and I'm really glad that I've moved on from that point. It's so pathetic. I was petty and very rude. I like to think that I have changed since then, but who really knows?

I graduated from high school on May 26th, but I don't see that as my biggest accomplishment for this year. I MET FALL OUT BOY ON MAY 11TH! That is one goal that will stick with me until I die. I remember that afterwards, my friends and I felt that sense of accomplishment that you only feel once or twice in your whole life. A wonderful month.

I remember watching Grease and Grease 2 over and over again in June. This month was actually a big reflection month for me. Sitting around, talking with my dad while he was still on leave from being in Iraq for about a year and three months, hanging out with my very special friends from Germany. Now that I think of it, I became obsessed with Buzznet around this time period. Musicals and Buzznet, friends and family. Great month.

Ugh. 4th of July fireworks display. Took Wentzton for a trip to see the fireworks. Bad idea. Good idea: buying Life In Cartoon Motion by Mika. I bought it and fell in love!

I'm positive that Audrey remembers me tutoring her a majority during these summer months. I helped her pass Algebra by sitting down and going through a whole second half of a book. It was such jolly good fun. Not that I am a math nerd or anything. August is also the month that my parents by new clothes for my siblings and I, but because I wasn't going to be starting school, I decided that the money should solely go to my siblings. I think each of them had something like $1,700 or something for new clothes this year, which is what I call a very splendid shopping trip.

Everyone went back to school, and I first started to drift away from what little friends I had. The only people that I ever talked to were the ones on Buzznet. I think this was the month that I met both Kerri and Sue as well. Aside from being OBSESSED with Buzznet, I began to put on quite a bit of weight. You can't tell from my pictures (nor will you ever), but yeah, I've gotten fatter. Not that there is anything wrong with it, I just feel more like a pillow and less like a human. I celebrated my birthday by going to a bookstore and buying a teenie magazine and cutting out all of the Pete Wentz pictures from inside.

Scrubs was on my mind like crazy this month. They didn't have a new episode until November, but I remember watching re-runs like crazy. I also declared that Chuck was one of my favorite shows as well. This was when my Buzznet obsession was at it's best (or worst). I remember being on for about 16-18 hours a day; I only got off to use the restroom, find food or go to sleep. It is so bizarre how things like that seem to take a toll on your body. I swear, I must have wasted about 2 years of my life in that one month. I began considering a degree in Medicine as I applied to DePaul in October. I talked to the counselor quite a bit.

Another Fall Out Boy concert where I got to hang with the boys. I also stole some of Pete Wentz's air! Mwahaha! That's all that I looked forward to. It was such a blur. Freddie Mercury's dying anniversary occured during this time period. I'd have given anything to have met him.

This month has been the most incredible month for me. Becoming an OG, getting accepted to college, downloading something like 2,000 new songs from the internet; I'm maxed out. A wonderful end to a not-half-bad year. All in all, I enjoyed it and I hope that you did as well.

Here are my resolutions for 2008

I've always thought knowledge would be the thing that would allow me to escape the normal atmosphere of every day living, but as of late, I think that I am just growing more stupid. Since I've graduated high school, I feel like there is a void in my brain that needs stimulation. I'm sure that it is knowledge that needs to be stuffed back into my brain. So, that is my goal for this year. Good thing that I've been accepted to college because I'm sure that it'll help me gain further knowledge in everything.

I kept up with it for a while, but it'll be so much more of a challenge now that I am not in school right now. I'm trying my best, and I'll keep it up next year. I swear that I will.

I've been a couch potato for so long. I can do so much more with my time than to spend it slowly dying in front of a television scream.

Someone. Anyone. I sort of vowed to not go out with anyone since late 2006, and I've since then, kept my promise (essentially). I think that I am quite fine alone, but it's always better to have someone else, right there by your side. I just want somebody to love; is that so wrong?

As 2007 comes to it's close, I don't feel as though I have accomplished much. I've graduated high school. I've become a Buzznet Original. I appreciate those things, but I don't think that I was mean to stop there. I'm supposed to keep trucking on. I just hope that by Christmas of next year, I feel more successful at life.

Who doesn't want to lose a couple pounds? I'm going to get working on it a little more consistently.

I've been an on and off recycler during this past year. I was even 'Recycle Lad' and I'd get up and go walking around my neighborhood, picking up garbage and recycling it when our recycling center opened. It's a lot of work, but I think that I'm up to committing to it for this next year.

I'm going to do my best to make each day a little happy. I've always hated when people have used the phrase, "My best days are behind me." I don't want to ever have to say that this year. I want that each day I get up in the morning, I smile and spread a bit of joy to the world. There is no such thing as a good day with sadness clouding your loved ones. And I consider you guys on Buzznet my loved ones. I'll do anything I can to make sure that you guys are at your happiest at all times. So, this is a resolution from me to myself, as well as yourself. =]

I want to be able to know the hot spots (NOT Tila's) and everything of the sort. I want to just experience the city for all that it is worth. I'm sure that going to school there will help me accomplish this. It'll be splendid.

Stay Tuned, if you know what I mean.

I hope that you had a great year. I hope that you continue to have great years. You have spectacular potential, and don't you dare let anyone tell you otherwise. Take care, and I'll be back online next year. John is out for the rest of '07.

Hearts!

Just starting another one of those things before the New Year.  =]

CLOVERFIELD!  I am looking forward to this.  I swear, it's all I think about.

I'm looking forward to more Gabe Saporta and his antics.  The world shouldn't love him though, Vanessa and I are going to kidnap him before he gets too famous.  (I also took this photo from your site; sorry!)

Please, say it isn't so.  I hope that these boys stick around for a long while and aren't done this year.  I plan on seeing them more next year.  Perhaps a new album...?

I'm actually dreading this:  the series finale of NBC's Scrubs.  *sobs in a corner*

DePaul University will be a big part of my life.  I'm sorry for mentioning it so much; I just can't explain how much it means to me to be going there.  =]

Alright, I tag:  EyelinerSmudge, ARenee301, Ikkyg, HideDontSeek, Crash13, Stewieismyhomeboy, woaini, MillieAnn282002, OMGParamore and PixyStix4Ever.  Enjoy

I really wish that we could have Christmas and the next day have it New Year's Eve.  We really don't need this whole six days in between.  We don't!

The worst of the worst happens for my family during that time period.  I swear, yesterday was such a great day; today, we all can't be so lucky.

I tend to think that I'm good at hiding some things from you guys.  My cynic side, my personal doubts, my issues; but it all comes back in droves.  I never mean to bring anyone down with anything that I do.  If anything, I want people to feel enlightened and that they can carry on with their lives with a huge grin.  I'm trying to make the world a better place, one post at a time.  But it's hard.

This was inspired because of my mother's current state.  She was just rushed to the emergency room because her blood count was too low and she thinks that there may be an infection near the place where her surgeons put her new hip.  She can barely walk and doesn't seem to be recovering too well.  Like I said, yesterday, she was in a great mood, looked happy as can be, walking about fine; today, the exact opposite.

This is why I have to become a doctor.  I can bring people to full recovery.  I can make them better.  I know that I can.  That's my ultimate goal for wanting to be a doctor: to give people more life, more time.

So, don't be sad about my problems.  It's my life.  I'll be sad about it enough as it is.  Please, tell your parents, your loved ones, that you love them.  Please, tell them that you appreciate them, and you are happy to share a great life with them.  Sickness gets everyone down, but you should always take advantage of a clean bill of health.  Go!  Tell your loved ones now!

You may have your arguements, but you know that they'll always have your back.

This is just a negative case of Karmaic Justice.  It will always be changing from good to bad.  You just have to make the best of a situation.

Hearts!  (Mine are going to be in the shooting stars tonight, wishing that everything gets better fast.)

I totally just got my official acceptance letter for DePaul for the Fall Semester for 2008.  In it they mentioned something about recieving an academic scholarship for my previous school work.  I was like, "I don't remember applying for one of those..."

As I opened up the nifty folder that they sent me, I found a ton of information on housing, tuition expenses, and a letter about an academic scholarship.  I read it and this is exactly what it said:

"Your DePaul Scholars' Award has a total value of $20,800.  $5,200 will apply to your tuition each academic year for up to four consecutive years of full-time undergraduate enrollment to DePaul."

Can you believe that?!  I'm completely amazed.  It also went to say that this is a secure amount because of the fact that I applied for Early Entry.  If I hadn't, this money wouldn't be absolutely promised to me as it is right now. 

So, I guess my years in school weren't completely bad.  I did the best that I could, and I'm quite happy with the help that it has played in my college education (and I haven't even started yet!!).  It's always nice to be ahead of the game in any situation.  $5,200 seems to be like a big jump on it if you ask me.

Also, I've been considering Campus Housing.  I know that I said that I wanted to live in the 'Rad Pad', but I'm not so sure anymore.  A campus apartment just seems a little bit more reliable (not that I'm saying anything bad to any of you!).  I want to live really close to DePaul.

On a side note, I'm sitting in my room, half-naked as usual.  There you go stupid girls that swoon over Matthew Lush; if you want to see a half-naked guy that dances to Amy Winehouse at odd times, come to my window.  Psh.  I've much more respect for myself than to flaunt myself about like that.  Honestly, how do his antics not scream 'attention'?  Anyone?

I've been talking to Wentzton a lot lately.  He seems to be my little therapist.  The thing that I've told him every single night is, "Why won't you turn into a human and love me as unconditionally as you do now?"  And each night that I do that, he tilts his head, as if to say, "What the hell is wrong with you?".  I'm sure that everyone talks to their pets from time to time.  Maybe not about them turning human and being ultimately loving, but anything goes in therapy.

I also just asked him what I should do now.  He jumped on my bed and slid under the blankets.  Such a cutie!

I guess that that is it for this late night.  Have a wonderful day, and thank you for reading!

[I love the family.  For everyone of you that know what I speak of, I love you.]

Sweet dreams -AND- sweet day dreams.  =]

Hearts!!

Thanks for the tag, Vanessa!!

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?

I like that gift bags are cool, but wrapping paper makes a present look better.

2. Christmas tree: real or artificial?

Real Christmas trees are amazing.  We've only ever had one real Christmas tree before, and that was definitely my favorite Christmas.

3. When do you put up the tree?

My mom used to like to do it either Thanksgiving night or the day right after.

4.When do you take the tree down?

We used to do it the last day of December.

5. Do you like eggnog?

I LOVE it to pieces.  Only around the holidays though.

6. Do you have a nativity scene?

Nah.  That's too much work, and we like to be lazy.  =]

7. Favorite gift received as a child?

My dad used to get me legos and toy cars.  I still have most of them, and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

8. Hardest person to buy for?

Well, I never knew what to get my dad.  I always used to get him a ton of weird random posters of old bands.  He has them in storage.

9. Easiest person to buy for?

My little brother.  If I gave that kid a ball of yarn, he'd be happy until next Christmas.

10. Worst Christmas gift?

The first Christmas that my family decided not to celebrate was when I didn't get any gifts.  No one talked the whole day.  None of us even left our rooms.  The days following Christmas, my parents felt bad and for New Years, I got a new TV, PlayStation 2 and stereo.  So, that was probably my best Christmas for gifts.  =]

11. Mail or e-mail a Christmas card?

I like to personally mail things, but I do enjoy a good e-card.

12. Favorite Christmas movie?

Probably "A Charlie Brown Christmas" or "Emmet Otter's Jugband Christmas".  We watch those every year.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?

BLACK FRIDAY!!!

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?

I can't say that I have, though I do know others that have.

15. Favorite food to eat on Christmas?

I don't have a favorite time.  Maybe just all day long. 

16. Clear or Colored Lights?

I like colored lights.  They're always cheerful.

17.  Favorite Christmas Song?

"A Winter's Tale" - Queen and "Merry Christmas, Baby" - Brighten and The Maine

18. Travel during Christmas or stay home?

I usually stay home.  We did have the option of travelling this year though.

19.Store bought or homemade gifts?

Homeade gifts mean so much more to me.

20. Angel or star on top of the tree?

Star.  Once, because my parents were so awesome, they put a picture of me in a star and put it on the tree and said, "You are our star, and someday, people will see that."  *tearing up*

21. Open presents on Christmas morning or Christmas Eve?

We've done it on both.  I do like Christmas morning more.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of year?

Probably all the whining that people do when they don't get what they want.  Spend more time being grateful, please.

23. Baked at home or buy?

I've been baking like a mad-woman!

24. Lights outside?

We haven't done it in a while, but we used to have a light up snowman!  It was SOOO cool!!

25. Mistletoe?

Would you kiss me?  That's what I thought.

I tag...ikkyg, swingthefocus11, tryingtofindthewords, eyelinersmudge and arenee301.

Out on Christmas, AvP:R is going to infect our movie theatres!!

We've got two directors, brothers Colin Strause and Greg Strause (the television show, The X-Files, The Nutty Professor, Volcano), who've been working on this film for a couple of years with a budget of $40,000,000.  Even though this is $20 million dollars short of the budget for the first film, I'm positive that it will prove to be brilliant.

If you don't know about the first Aliens Vs. Predators before, let me get you up to speed.

In 2004, Aliens Vs. Predators came to the world, based off of the comic book series "Aliens vs. Predators" and the Alien and Predator films. The movie starts with an alien queen coming out of a cryogenic sleep, and giving birth to a ton of eggs that contain an alien called a "facehugger". These "facehuggers" attach themselves to humans, and the "chestbursters" come to be. The "chestbursters" come out of the humans, and grow into aliens. The predators get angered with the sudden population of aliens on the Earth, and decide to do some hunting, as they have done throughout history the humans discover. The humans then go along to understand that the predators must hunt these aliens in order to keep them from spreading across the globe. There is a lot of violence, a lot of ugly monsters and a whole lot of action. If you haven't seen this, I would recommend seeing it before AvP:R.

This movie is going to be awesome. Here is a preview of the plot that I found online.

"When a Predator scout ship crash lands in a Colorado town. The Aliens on board escape and kill all the Predators except one. The last remaining Predator must now destroy all the Aliens as well as the horfic Pred-Alien that was spawned in the first AVP. Meanwhile the towns people are helplessly caught in the middle of the ultimate face-off between these two mythic creatures. A sequel to the 2004 film AVP directed by Paul W.S. Anderson, "Alien vs Predator: Requiem" continues the Alien-Predator war. " (Taken From IMDB.com)

Yay!! The Predators are in my neck of the woods!! If there really were aliens coming to Colorado, you can bet that I'd want to catch one and keep it in my backyard!

This movie seems quite promising; I'm looking forward to the follow-up of the last AvP movie. There seem to be much better graphics, and hopefully, much more violence!

Here are some promotional shots from the movie. (courtesy of 20th Century Fox and some taken by James Dittiger)

Look at that detail; it's freaking marvelous!!  This will be AMAZING!

Inside an alien's cave in Colorado (the aliens from space are definitely illegal here!!)

God, they are ugly, aren't they?!  That's the beauty of these movies though.

I hope that you all celebrate your Christmas this year, watching Aliens fight against Predators for the second time (maybe another is on it's way...?).  I'm rooting for this and more!

I am posting a preview of the movie for you to all see soon. Enjoy it!!

So, this is a little scattered. Please bear with me.

This is written in response to a journal that I read recently. The person who posted the journal got a ton of comments regarding the journal's substance. I won't quote it, but I will mention it quite a bit.

When you look into a mirror, do you not like what you see? Because that is not me. When I look in the mirror, I see myself for who I am. My physical prescence, naked or clothed, and I love what I see. I may not be as good-looking as others, but hell, my features are all mine. My looks will always change, but they will at least work off of the base that I have right now. I'm fine with that. I LOVE ME! It doesn't make sense that I shouldn't love myself; no one should have to put up with self-sabotage. It happens all the time to everyone, but what I am saying is that it doesn't have to. I implore you to look in a mirror nearby and smile. Do you like what you see? I love what I see when I see your wonderful smiles on my computer screen. And I mean that for everyone.

There are lots of reasons for not liking what you see in the mirror: insecurity, doubt, unhappiness. In case you didn't know, here are some definitions for you.

in·se·cu·ri·ty

This is something that might take some time doing, but at the end of it all, it will be worth it all. You should build confidence! How you can do that is do something that you know that you are good at. If you do something that you are good at long enough, it will eventually increase your confidence. For assurance, ask people what they think of you. Buzznet is a really nice way to do that. You can post a picture or something, and ask people what they really think of who you are. Self-doubt cannot be avoided, but it can be dealt with.

doubt

If you are uncertain about yourself, in any way, you are suffering from self doubt. Many people criticize themselves way too much; STOP IT! Whether if it is your teeth being too gapped or a lazy eye that you are afraid is developing, WE ALL HAVE DOUBTS! You shouldn't let your doubts get you down; you come up with these things in your head because of all of the images that you see each day. You think that beauty lies on your skin when you get down on your looks. Please, don't be hesitant to believe in yourself. I believe that we are all made the way we are, and that you should enjoy each second of it. You are never going to get a new face; love the one that you own.

un·hap·py

This has been one of those topics that I just can't get over: WHY IS EVERYONE UNHAPPY!? Sadness is an emotion that should only be felt when something bad has happened, and as much as I am going to be hated for saying this, SADNESS DOESN'T HAPPEN EVERY DAY TO EVERYONE!! Get over your petty problems and try to imagine the bigger picture of things. Misery is so out-dated. I hope that someone kicks you in the crotch and you wake up from the latest fashion. I'll be happy to be the one to deliver the blow if that is all it will take. :-)

The person who posted this journal (and I don't mean to offend you at all) said something along the lines of the fact that when he looks in the mirror sometimes, he sees someone ugly looking back at him. He asked if anyone else had the same problem, and there are tons of responses that say that they did feel the exact same way.

So, I ask you, people of Buzznet, when you look in the mirror, do you see someone ugly looking back at you? Are you that uncomfortable with yourself that you have to put yourself down in front of a mirror? Don't put yourself down; it's completely pointless. You look the way you do. Own it!

This is me.  Big-nosed, flabby-armed, crooked-toothed me.  But I'm happy with myself when I look in the mirror.  =]

I don't mean to sound like Dr. Phil when I write these. I'm hoping that I can inspire at least ONE person to understand where I am coming from. That is all for this one.

Hearts!!

"Read all about it!  Boy becomes Buzznet Original and has a heart attack in the process!"

For every single person that has ever said anything nice about me or has included me in anything, I thank you.  I felt so honored as I was going through the "Who Should Be A Buzznet Orginal?" topic.  To be nominated was such a thrill ever.  And to see the many responses that I got.  Wow.

It's such an eye-opener.  I really seem to be doing good here on Buzznet.

I promise to keep doing good on Buzznet, and I've got the announcement from PanasonicYouth saying that I'll be one of those crazy music/movie review writers here.  I wouldn't have it any other way.

As another thank you, I'm going to leave a series of jolly pictures that I have found on the internet that hopefully brighten your day, as you have mine.  =D

John Micheal Anthony Ortega III - Buzznet Original  (My favorite accomplishment!)

Mr. Sinatra

Very pretty flower painting.

JOLLY RANCHERS!!

Pigs are happy.  =]

I miss this stuff.  I love the energy drink.  =DD

Hearts!!!

I've been tagged by quite a few people for this one as well. I love these so much. =]

8. Tickets to a concert (ANY CONCERT)

7. An unlimited amount of chocolate

6. A ton of good books

5. Candy canes

4. "QUEEN: Live In Montreal" DVD

3. A love life (Just kidding; I'm happy without one)

(Side note: The extra saliva that is involved in intimate kissing can help prevent tooth decay, breaking down plaque and removing bacteria!!)

2. Liposuction

1. Happy days for everyone!!

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT EVERYONE WANTS!!! Go make yourself a list now.

So, here are some things that really make me feel all happy and stuff!  =D

My brother, Jim, and my mother, Maria.  Yesterday, they decided to make jello with little gummy fishes on the inside.  It was so happy to just hang out with my close family; it brings me quite a bit of joy.

I think that I was talking to SwingTheFocus11 about having a book that I'd keep all of my friends' in stuff.  I'm going to go ahead and add stuff about the best people ever.  I often say stuff like "You are awesome in my book!" and so I'll have a book to keep track of who is awesome! 

I bought some 'Now & Later' candy today and just smiled my way through each of them.  If you ever want to kill time and have fun, get some of these and see how many you can balance on your nose.  My record is 6.

I GOT A SUDOKU KEYCHAIN!!!  For people that know me, you know that I am disgustingly in love with this game.  I'm honestly thinking about entering a tournament.  I've played this game for about 2 years now, so I think that I'll be ready.

I bought this book today, and I read the first few pages and I'm already excited for it.  I'll be sure to do a review or update about how the book is going later, but I can tell you now that I think that this will be amazing!

So, this isn't completely pointless.  I've actually wanted to say thank you to everyone that has ever been nice to me.  I feel warm and fuzzy inside right now, and I'm so thankful for Buzznet.  I can talk to people, who want to hear me talk.  I can laugh with people, and not feel singled out.

People on Buzznet:  YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, AND I WOULD  RATHER TRADE MY ARM IN EXCHANGE FOR EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!

Have a happy, joyous, warm-hearted weekend.  Enjoy your holidays and love the ones near and dear to you.

Hearts!

I am pretty much extremely angry at the current moment. Why?

EVERYTHING!!  (Not really everything, but a lot of stuff)

I'm sure that you all will agree that the things that I am quite mad at are some of the same things that you yourself can't stand at all. I will list them all and explain why I am mad at said points.

Emo Blogs. I know that when you are sad, you have to get things out, but is it freaking necessary to tell the whole world that you wanted to kill yourself?! Or that you've even had the thoughts of suicide?! I know that it sounds insensitive, but I am sick of your stupid sadness. If you need a place to let out some of your sadness, TALK TO SOMEONE! GET SOMEONE TO CONSOLE YOU! Don't post a blog saying something along the lines of "I thought about killing myself last night and I want to die" or "would someone kill me?". It's a big attention ploy. I know that I sound somewhat hipocritical, but I don't think that any of the emo blogs that I've posted were ever this bad. As I was writing them, I often changed my tone to a hopeful one. This has to change; sadness is so old. GET OVER IT!

Pointless Jounals. I'm so sick of going to someone's journal only to read a sentence or two about someone's life. I swear, today I've read three of them, and I am done with that person from now on. If you are going to write something for the world to read, PLEASE make it something worthwhile and at least semi-interesting. It's so annoying when you think that someone posted something awesome, but you get there and all that the journal says is "I want a boyfriend". It's completely aggravating; honestly, I wanted to break my computer because of how stupid it was. Please stop. I'll beg if I have to.

The Request For Comments/Buzzes/Notes. This just might be the thing to make me snap someday. I understand that when you want to win a contest, this is somewhat okay, as long as afterwards you are friends with the people that you ask for and you ask in a completely polite way. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO A POST TO COMMENT OR BUZZ BECAUSE YOU TELL ME TO. I want to do it because I think that it is awesome. Ask me for a comment or a buzz on one of your posts that isn't related to a contest or something of the sort, consider me your ex-friend as of today.

It is so hard for me to stay positive after reading that someone wants to kill themselves, so I'd rather never want to read about it again. If any of my friends are having problems, please talk to someone. I'm always here! ALWAYS! I can be the outside person that you talk to about your troubles. I'm always happy to help someone out, no matter what the situation. Just don't write something pointless and expect that I like you afterwards. If you want a place to write your sob stories and request sympathy, go to myspace.

Buzznet is my fun place, and these things are prohibiting from having the most amount of fun that I could have on Buzznet. I want to eliminate all of these things that bother me and just stick with the good, happy people that I've grown to love on Buzznet.

To everyone that hasn't done one, two or any of these things, I applaud your attitude and self. I admire you to shreds.

Hearts!!

P.S. - Please excuse my not-so-cheerful mood. Give me an hour or so, and I'll bounce back.

To TryingToFindTheWords:

I can not thank you enough for coming up with such an idea.  I literally screamed when I it, and I swear that I'm so excited.  Revved and ready.  THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

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Now, I'm sure that you are asking, "What idea did she come up with?"  She came up with the idea that my band could potentially appeal to the other Decaydance Records bands!  I could create demos, mail them to anyone that is going to see Cobra Starship, The Academy Is (though they aren't officially on Decaydance), The Hush Sound, Gym Class Heroes, Doug, Lifetime or The Cab, the wonderful people that show up to the shows could try to get some backstage time with a band member (Gabe will be the easiest to get a hold of), hand over the demo and say a few good words about us and we're in!  Now, I'm sure that it's much more complicated than that, but for the time being, it seems to be quite an exquisite idea that I am willing to go for!

I'm not sure why I hadn't thought of it yet!  It's quite annoying to think that there are angles that I still don't know of.  If anyone has any ideas as to how I can appeal to more people, let me know!

On other notes, my life has been great.  We got a ton of snow, but I didn't make the snowman today because it was far too cold.  I'll work on it tomorrow though.  =]

How is everyone doing?  It's the middle of the week, and Christmas is closing in!!

Hearts!!

Buzznet-ers!!

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I've got a burn mark on my right arm from a birthday a while back.  A friend of mine at the time thought it would be funny to shove me onto a burning grill.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Everything that I want and more.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I snore and talk in my sleep.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
What kind don't I listen to?!

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
8:36 am.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
I'm not sure.  The '80s?  NO!  Freddie Mercury!

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My relationships and laptop.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
I used to say that I am 5' 9 1/2", but I am actually 5' 11" I think.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Sometimes.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Nope.  Not often.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Me.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Any hair color.  If you show me a pair of bright green eyes, I'll literally fall for you on the spot.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING/PROPOSED TO AT?
I don't think that I'll ever marry.  If I do, I'd like to ask someone on New Years.  I'd pull them close, french kiss them and then they will be surprised because they will pull the ring out of their mouth.  And I'd ask them to start the new year off with me by their side.  =]

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I'm a coffee-holic.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Canadian Bacon.  *drools*

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Something good.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
I can't remember.  Though, my favorite to date is my graduation gift from Maddy!  =D

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?

I'm in love with a ton of people.  SO MANY PEOPLE!!

23. Are you double jointed?
Nope.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHES?
I like clothes that fit.

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yes.  Mr. Wentzton occupies all of my time.

27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
It's a cute little dog.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS
LEAVING?
I'd make them fall in love with me so that they wouldn't want to leave.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Show them.  It can be expressed in so many ways.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED.
   69

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Either one.  It's just hair.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
I'm not sure.  I don't call very many people at all.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
I've been everywhere, man.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
I'm not sure; you tell me!

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
That I have.

37. FIRST JOB?

I cannot remember what my first little job was.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Mmhmm.  It's fun.

41. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Being sad.  I'm quite better now.

40. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Meh.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?

I'm not sure.  My optimism.  Or smile!  =DD

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
I want to live in Chicago by the time my 18th birthday comes around.  =]

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
2.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My dad, and his dad.

47. Do you wish on stars?
Of course.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Head & Shoulders.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes!

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Soy.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
I bite my fingernails.  Quite often in fact.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOURSELF?
Yes.  I'd actually think that I'd want a relationship with myself.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I scream.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
My gameboy color!

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
129, but I hardly call any of them.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
I like being sarcastic.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Too many to name.  I like Jage though.

68. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
CHUCK!!!

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Chocolate chip cookie dough.

71. HAVE YOU GOT ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
I do.

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
I've got a laptop.

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Sleep.

74. WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE RIDEN IN A CAR?
Pretty fast.  Like 90 MPH.  Yikes.

75. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Girlfriend (Remix) - Avril Lavigne Feat. Lil' Mama

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Orange juice.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My sister.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
People who hate.

82. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
September.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Black.

86. EYE COLOR?
Wide-eyed brown.  =]

87. FAVORITE SHOES?
I don't have a certain kind of favorite shoe.  The ones that I made that one time were pretty wonderful.

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Sonic.

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
IHOP!!!

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Mmhmm.  It's good.

91.LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Family Guy.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
April Fools, baby!

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Bleh.  No, no I don't.  =]

94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Democrat.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Both.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
I have no idea.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
I should read more...

100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Who needs a love life when you love your life?!  =DD

Kendra Reneé Marcusse (TheSceneAvenger.buzznet.com)

I leave you with pictures that Kendra took or with Kendra in them. Enjoy!

I like reading what random thoughts cloud everyone's brains as of late.  It's quite nice to just read that everyone's thinking process is just as crazy as my own.  Here are what are on my mind right now:

(X) - I'm watching SNL right now, and I wish that they weren't so damn hilarious.  I miss Mad TV from about 5 or 6 years ago.  You know those episodes.  The all-star cast: Alex Borstein, Debra Wilson, Stephanie Weir, Michael McDonald, Nicole Sullivan, Phil Lamarr.  There will never be a Mad TV as hilarious as they used to be.  Now, I can't stand to watch a whole episode.  It, honestly, brings me to tears.

(X) - I have no sympathy for the sad youth these days.  It has gotten so old to be sad.  There is nothing wrong with getting old, it's just kids don't know when to freaking feel happy!  It's so frustrating.  Drives me to want to kill.

(X) - Helping people in times of crisis actually please me quite a bit.  For some reason, I can suck joy from other's horrible problems.  I say that, but in actuality, I love to hear people tell me that I've helped them with something really hard for them.  It makes me feel as though I am worth something.  I love that feeling quite a bit.

(X) - I've been thinking of going into Psychology.  It would be a pretty easy job to get paid to help people through their problems, but now that I think of it, I really need a challenge.  I want to go to work each and every day psyched and ready for anything.  I think that if I was a doctor, it would suit my needs quite rightly.

(X) - There are quite a few people that I know that are optimistic.  Though, I love that there are so many on Buzznet.  It's quite nice.

(X) - I found a ton of old pictures that I'll be uploading soon!  I was such a gross baby.  I have tons of pictures of myself with stuff on my face.  Jelly, pudding, you name it!  But I was kid.  =]

(X) - My mother goes to get her new hip in about a week.  I wish her all the luck in the world, and she has been going through the worst of the worst health problems this last year.  Last New Years Eve, my mother had a stroke.  I was counting down and welcoming the New Year in the emergency room.  That wasn't meant to be a downer; it's just one of those things that I want you to know.  I'm an optimistic, and I treasure life, every second of it.

(X) - If Fall Out Boy wanted to break up, but they all were fine with it, I would be fine with it.  If they left on foul terms, I would hate it all.  But whatever happens, happens, right?  I wish them the best, and I hope they become as legendary as Queen or The Beatles.  Everyone knows them now and in 20 years, I hope that everyone knows who they are.

(X) - If I never have a child, I'd be fine with it.  I think that if I re-populate the world, it'll turn into a mess.  Though, I do love the sound of carrying on the 'John' legacy.  My son's name would be 'John Ortega the Fourth'.  =]

(X) - This is as random as it gets, folks.  Soak it all in:  pickle, tissue, dollar, bag, car, wall, painting, flower, mug, lamp, fan, light, handle, buckle, happy, scents.

Well, there they are.  Read 'em and don't weep, smile!

Hearts!

P.S. - My 'Best Of Buzznet' tomorrow is going to be awesome!  Be sure to check it out.  I'll be highlighting another sweet pal.

I was tagged by the one and only Stewieismyhomeboy.  She is lovely!  If you haven't seen her list, go check it out once you are done.

10.  Zachary Levi

If you haven't seen "Chuck" yet, go watch it.  You'll see why he lives in my brain.

9.  Lacey Mosley

I am always thoroughly pleased with her voice.  She's wonderful.

8.  Jack White

The man is a sweet specimen.  Who wouldn't want him?!

7.  Gwen Stefani

I love Gwen!  She is one of the best women ever!!

6.  Billy Zane

*speechless*

5.  Uma Thurman

She stole my heart a while ago.  I wanted to marry her once.  =]

4.  Zach Braff

I heart Zach Braff to death!

3.  Lily Allen

Brilliant woman.

2.  Amy Winehouse

I wonder if I would get drunk from a kiss from her...  =]

1.  Freddie Mercury/Pete Wentz

Who wouldn't want these two?!?!?!?!

Of course, these are just my celebrities.  I wish that I could give each of my friends on Buzznet a big fat kiss!  =DD

I choose EVERYONE THAT IS READING THIS AND HASN'T DONE IT YET!  =]

I'm out!

Hearts!

I can't sleep so I'm stuck watching Queen videos again until I manage to pass out.  It usually works well, but I just can't get over the fact that I'll be going to Chicago next fall.  WOW!  Next birthday of mine, I will be starting college and getting myself a degree in Pre-Med.  I'll become a doctor.  I'll help people.  I'll save lives.  I'll give it my all.

And the city will be my key to the world.  I'll be so involved in the city that they'll want to name me "Nicest Guy In Town".  I'll always be cheerful, and I'll be sure to cut my losses.  Lord knows that it's about time that I am over such things.  It makes me laugh at how much time was spent thinking about what could have been.  I've got to make it on my own.  I've got to break free.

It makes me feel so complete now that I know what I want to do.  I wish that there was more of me.  Like a clone.  One could be the rock star and the other be a doctor.  I think I know what I am going to do though.  I'm going to do both!

Sure, it sounds a little tough and down-right ridiculous, but I've had practice multi-tasking my whole life.  I took on extra classes last year just to get away from a bad place!  I'm confident in my abilities to do both.  I'll go to get my education.  I'll get my degree.  I'm going to do that before I ever think of succeeding in music.  I want something to fall back on; everyone needs a safety net.

I'm having a good time.  And I bet that Freddie Mercury did too.  All the time.  No wonder he was successful; HE WAS HAPPY!  In a generation where happiness ruled, he was the happiest.  People are drawn to optimism, whether they like to admit it or not.  Optimism brings the best out of people.  It makes them smile a beautiful smile, brings a tear to run down a face for joy, causes the world to change, one person at a time.

That's it!  A key of Freddie Mercury was his optimism.  If I can manage to stay as optimistic and hopeful, I can make just like he did.  This is only one major quality of him, but it is a damn good one.

I'm not the only one that wishes that this generation was more bubbly, more cheerful.  There will be a message sent through the next couple of weeks getting the world back on track.  Let's hope that for 2008 that there will be less suicides and sadness and much more smiles, screams, shouts and a more sanguine lifestyle for teenagers (it's not limited to teenagers; you adults out there better have those pearly whites gleaming at this point in time).

Optimism is the first step.  I'll stay optimistic and figure out what the next step is.

"Gleam, like a star, across the sky.  Someone will see you and want to run with you across the Heavens and Earth."

What do you think?  Optimistic possible lyric?  =]

Hearts!

I'm going to Chicago, baby!

I just got accepted to DePaul University!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm not going to start until next fall, but I will still be IN CHICAGO!!!!! 

I'M GOING TO BE GOING TO THE SAME DAMN SCHOOL THAT PETE FREAKING WENTZ WENT TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm the happiest man alive...

So, in a couple of hours, I will be having 4 teeth surgically removed from my mouth so that I may receive braces!  =DD

I'm so excited.  For anyone that knows me personally, you know that I LOVE braces.  Like I have this really weird thing for braces.  They're just so perfect.

When I see someone with braces, it weakens my knees and captures a piece of my heart.  I'm not even kidding about loving braces that much.  When Maddy got hers, I wouldn't shut up for about a week.  Well, that's not true.  I still talk about them.

But yeah.  I get 4 teeth pulled today, then in about a week or so, I'll go to the Orthodontist, and he'll recommend braces for my bottom teeth (hopefully on the top too)!  It'll be so exciting.

This journal is pretty pointless, so let me make a point.

Don't hate going to the dentist.  Sure, he hurts your mouth and digs in your teeth, but he is actually helping you in the long run!  If you want to be 70 years old with a majority of all of your teeth, you'll have to accept the fact that dentists aren't bad.  They are good people, cleaning smiles and brightening them for the future!  =]

There we go.  Much love.

Hearts

Ooh!  So, I am thinking that I want to read people's palms again.  If you are interested, take a good picture of your hand (by good, I mean let me see a majority of the lines in your palm) and post it or send it to me.  Ew...It sort of sounds like I have a hand fetish or something.  I promise that I don't.

Obesity is such a horrible thing.  Why does it seem to infect certain people?  I mean, I've always told that there is nothing wrong with a little meat on your bones, but lately, I've been wondering what is really wrong with it all.  We're all equal on the inside, right?  Does our body appearance really matter?  I'm so glad that Jennifer Garner (I hope that they aren't related, Maddy) mentioned the fact that you can look good no matter what your weight.  I wish that more famous people would bring it up.  I mean, from the way that I see it, I'm just a fat kid and no one wants to know my opinions.

Then, when I think about it all, my opinions matter to me, right?  That's all that I've ever really cared about: myself.  If life came down to survival, I would do what I can to save myself.  It's horrible to think about, but you never know.  When it all comes down to survival, we all must do what we have to to survive.

A new topic: music.  Music always seems to move in grooves and trends, but lately I'm not so sure.  Modern music all sounds the same, and it's not good. 

1950's: Big band and 'bubble pop' music.  There may have only been 2 major music trends during this period, but there was variation of the two.  There was so much creativity involved in making people happy with this music.  (Also, we cannot forget the origins of Rock And Roll began with these genres).

1960's: Disco and Rock And Roll.  This was our retro age.  Disco parties, rock and roll radio, platform boots.  I don't need to explain this era; go watch Austin Powers again!

1970's: Punk and Rock (glam, hard and mellow).  There were so many sub-genres to break out of these roots.  You had the underground begin to form; pop music in the making.  Punk was at it's peak, and it was good.

1980's: Synth-pop and 'Hair' bands.  Whenever anyone asks me what my favorite music time period was, I always say the 1980s.  Strides were made musically, breaking barriers, one keytar at a time.  One musn't forget the wild hair bands as well.  Out of control and completely adored.

1990's: Grunge, heavy metal and rap.  I would like to say that I think that grunge and heavy metal was best during this time period.  You had the saddest songs, written by the toughest dudes.  Each and every piece of music was made for hangovers and moshing.  Oh, yeah!  There was also rap!  =D

2000's: [insert whatever the hell you want to call our music here]  For the most part, I would say that we are just a mixture of everything.  More recently, we've been moving towards an Alternative motion.  Not that I am complaining, I just wish that we could make an impact on music.

Christmas is around the bend.  I hope that you all get what you want for Christmas.  I will be making banners for anyone that wants one.  I like the one that I made for Brittany (stewieismyhomeboy); if you haven't seen it, check it out.  And if you want one, just ask!  I'd be more than happy to go crazy with that paint program (I cannot thank you enough for that link, Sue!  That program is genius!).

Last night, I got to drive!  And alone even!  I know that it is illegal, but my mom wanted me to get our car from my uncle (we found out that he had been drinking).  So, I got in the car, shaking and freaking out as usual, turned on the stereo, popped in "From Under The Cork Tree" and turned it to "Xo".  I drove about 4 or so miles in the car, and I guess that I didn't do that bad.  I remember singing the song, more than I do driving at all.  I think that I should listen to Fall Out Boy more as I drive.  It would just make the driving experience much easier.

Lame opening paragraph.

"As I laid in the grass, looking at the star-filled night, a man and a woman walked passed my house.  She was complaining that she had a stomach ache, and the man told her to wait just a little while longer.  I looked to them and asked if they would like something for the pain, some antacid or food.  They looked my way, and the woman screamed.  I figured that she must not have seen me there, and she began to run.  The man followed her, looking back my way, probably trying to see me.  I thought to myself, "What was her problem?"  I lifted my hands and realized that I could see straight through them."

I hope that I never become a writer.  I'd rather become an ice cream man.  =]

Well, this has gone on long enough.  Much love.

Hearts!

WHOA!  It just came to me that the lady from DePaul University said that my "package has been delayed."  Does that mean that I am getting a package of University information!?!?!

XDDDDDDDDDDD

I really hope that I am not getting my hopes up, but whatever.  It raises my spirits all the more right now.  =D

Ooh!  Also, I've lost 6 pounds since last week!  I'm so happy!

Anywho...

Hearts!

I feel a little inspiration, but it's like the inspiration that has been felt by tons of other artists before me.  It's a feeling where you don't know what will happen, but you feel so confident in it that it just comes before you in the form of a song, a picture or some other manifestation. 

My inspirational moment is an idea.

I want to be the next Freddie Mercury.  It's as simple as that.  There has been no one like him before, nor do I think that anyone (myself included) will ever come close to filling his boots, but damn it all, I'm going to try.  Over the next few weeks, I'm going to create myself into an image that is inspired by him.  Every song of his, I will read and re-read.  Every interview, I will examine his answers, choice of words, posture, gestures.  Every thing that Mr. Bulsara has ever done will be under my examination table.  I'm going to figure him out, and the key to how wonderful he was. 

I will also be examining people I feel to be near him in the modern age.  Two of those people that I feel might be close to how he was are Peter Wentz and Mika.

Pete Wentz.  There's so much to say about him that resembles the way that Freddie acted.  First off, I think that I'd like to mention his popularity.  Pete has a fan base that could fill a nation.  But with the friends come the enemies.  Many people saw it, Freddie Mercury always had a hate group.  Many of Freddie's enemies included anti-homosexual activists and the group of folks that were against his music just to break away from their mainstream attitude.  Think about it:  there was a journal posted not along ago about Pete saying that he wished that he was gay and how many people do you think said an anti-gay slur to his name.  The same goes with the other point.  Fall Out Boy is hated because it is considered somewhat mainstream!

Mika.  Oh, that man makes me melt inside.  If I could, I would marry him in Canada.  My views on him also reflect on the point of his sexuality.  No one knows his sexuality, but himself and he's keeping quite tight-lipped about it all.  He says that people should like his music, not because of what his sexual preference is, but because the music is good.  I respect his decision fully and love him to death for making a statement to that effect.  My other reason for believing Mika is like Freddie is because of his voice.  Mika has a voice that is just powerful, high-pitched and low, and amazes the world, one lyric at a time.  I, honestly, fell in love with Mika after the song, "Grace Kelly", first aired in the United States.  He could reach the high points that I'd wanted to hit for a long while, and he could hold it there for as long as he wanted.  The man is an exceptional vocalist.

It seems as though I have my work cut out for me.  But good things have been known to happen to good people, right?  Consider the me the nicest, kindest, dearest boy you know!  I'm going to stay cheerful and kind for the rest of my days if that principle is still in effect.

"Nice guys finish last."  I don't think that whoever came up with that ever met me.  I will be the next Freddie Mercury.

P.S.

For anyone reading this, if you know of anyone that reminds you of Freddie Mercury, tell me!  It will aid me in the future.  One must always study the competition.

Thank you for taking time out of your life to read about me.  I wish the best to you all.

Much love.  =]

I've been tagged by the lovely Sarah (Sarah83185). This list is solely for her. =]

1. "My Apologies" - The Hush Sound

I love this song because of how well it was made. It's so sweet sounding; nothing like how you might think it would sound because of the title. I, honestly, thought that it would be extremely sad, but it's not. It deserves to be in my iTunes library; it makes me happy.

2. "My Doorbell" - The White Stripes

There's something about The White Stripes that is just a little infectious. They've always seemed to come up with really, really catchy stuff. And it's brilliant. They deserve to be in my library because of how creative they are. I love 'em.

3. "How To Save A Life" - The Fray

So many things can be said about The Fray...They are talented. They make music to help people. I think that I have them in my library because of how they can always give me hope to live for another day. It's sounds a little cheesy, but that's how I feel.

4. "Don't Wake Me Up" - The Hush Sound

Again, this band seems to wake up every sense in my system. This song has a small part where you can hear Patrick sing so beautifully; it's my favorite part of this song. I love that this song is on my list because it reminds me that at the end of the day, you can go to sleep and dreams can always be an escape from reality.

5. "The Pretender" - Foo Fighters

Love this song!! Dave Grohl makes my life worth living, one word at a time. =] I'm a victim of the times, and it's in my tune collection because of how popular it was. =]

6. "I'm A Fake" - The Used

I really like listening to this song when I am mad. It reminds me of the fact that I'm not fake. I can tell anyone in the world anything about myself, and be positive that it is all truth. It's very empowering.

7. "Love Shack" - B-52's

A classic. It's on here because it reminds me of my grandpa; he used to dance to this song when he was alive. God rest his soul in peace; he was a wonderful man.

8. "Dance Dance" - Fall Out Boy

What do I say about this?! It's amazing. I love it. Every Fall Out Boy song that I could find is in my list. Mmhmm.

9. "Slide" - Goo Goo Dolls

It always brings a smile to my face. It makes me think that I am older than what I am. I remember listening to it on the radio a long time ago. It's on my list because it brings me back to my baby years.

10. "For A Fan... (1)" - [the] Blackboard Decals

I wonder why I have this song in my tunes...I really do. =D

11. "Ring Ring" - MIKA

This song is so brilliant. All of MIKA's stuff is amazing. I swear, if I could, I would totally just steal him for the rest of his life. I hope that I can meet someone so perfect. Ooh!! Oh, listen to me go all "fan boy". :P He's on my list because his stuff is amazing, positive, brilliant, impressive; all of it!

12. "Time After Time" - Cyndi Lauper

Every 1980s movie had this song playing during the dance scene, and I think that is why I love it so much. I wish that I had sat out more dances; it would've been better than making a fool of myself. But then again, we learn from our mistakes. This song is on my list because it is so damn perfect. It sums up the '80s very well.

13. "All These Things That I've Done" - The Killers

"If you can, hold on, hold on..." I love this song. The video, the band, the sounds. This song gives me hope for mankind. I don't know how, but it does. "You know you've got to help me out..." I think that it just may be that line. It's an all-around wonderful song. =]

14. "Tears Dry On Their Own" - Amy Winehouse

I don't care what anyone says, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE AMY WINEHOUSE! She is such an amazing artist; her music is profound! This song is probably the only positive song that she seems to have, but let me tell you, it's amazing what one song can do to you. This song helped me move into my whole 'positive thinking' movement. So, shit-talkers, keep it up! You are only making her more known! She's on my list because I love the woman. She's spectacular.

15. "Girls, Girls, Girls" - Motley Crue

Mmhmm. Girls. What can I say? =] They need not my permission to be on my list. They should be on everyone's playlist! =DD

Much love.

Again, I've fallen behind on something that I was terribly dedicated to fulfilling.  = (

I was supposed to finish my "Best Of Buzznet" journal about xoxmrswentzxox.  She really is a great gal, and I chose her earlier this week!  I will finish it and post it tomorrow, darling!  Please, forgive me?!  =]

I also want to apologize for being so empty-headed lately.  I promised to write journals every day, but they just slip my mind like crazy.  I'll get on that.  =]

I'm going to be in Buzznet heaven for the next few weeks.  I talked to my counselor from DePaul, and she told me that my acceptance/declination letter has been delayed for further review.  She said that I should get it within 7 business days, and if I didn't, I could just call her and get my answer.  I'm not sure if I got accepted, but if I did, hot damn!  I will be the happiest kid out there (more happy than what I usually am).  =D

So, my apologies and such.  Hope your weekend is/went well.

Much love.  =DD

Yeah.  I woke up at about 3:25 or so, and I went to bed this morning at 3:40-ish.

Aaaaahhhhhh!!!!  That means that I've got much to look up on Buzznet.  =DD

If you made any posts, tell me about them!

P.S.

To EyelinerSmudge:  Let's do it!  XDD