I'm baaaaaaaack!

I have been tagged by miss Eyelinersmudge.  Thanks a ton!  =]

I didn't know who to pick, men or women.  So, I did a conbination of both.  And there are more than the initial 10.

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10.  Kimberely Schor

I don't have a crush on my librarian.  She is just awesome and should be mentioned.

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9.  Sal Mineo

Yikes.  What can I say about this actor?  He makes minorities look good.  Oh, so good.  But yeah.  I wish he wasn't killed.  I would probably swoon over him.  Not that I don't.  Rest in Peace, Sal.

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8.  Mariska Hargitay

Wonderful.  She is the actress behind the success of the show, "Law & Order: SVU".  She plays Olivia Benson.  I love her.  Everything about her.  She's so cool.


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7.  Gwen Stefani

Her style, her music, her background, her baby, her husband, her class, her beauty.  Perfection, thy name is Gwen.

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6.  Darryl Palumbo (Head Automatica, Glassjaw) and Max Bemis (Say Anything)

These guys are my heros.  One sings about beating hearts and graduation days, while the other prefers to talk about his adventures over the telephone and how he laughs himself to sleep.  These guys will forever be engraved in my life.  =]  Men will be boys.  And these boys are the best.

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5.  Lily Allen and Amy Winehouse

You want to hear about tears and rehab?  You want to listen to walking around town and smiling all the time?  I bet that you would if you even took a gander at these quixotic women, you would want to listen until their vocal chords broke.  I do.  And I will forever.

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4.  Mika

There is nothing to say about him.  He is absolute wonder in everything.  He is my oxygen.

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3.  Peter Wentz (Fall Out Boy, Arma Angelus) and Robert Smith (The Cure)

I=Speechless.  (I don't need words; I never will to describe how these men make me feel).

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2.  The Bigger Lights

This an awesome band.  Check them out.  Do it!

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1.  Madison Sipple and Maja Ivarsson

Two of my favorite gals in the universe.  It will always remain.  =]

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I will randomly tag people.  So, sue me if I don't mention them in this journal.  =]

This morning, I was supposed to start college.  I was supposed to go to my first class, General Chemistry.  Did I go?  Nope.  I slept in.  I guess I have no desire to do that.  I want to be a doctor to help people, but I don't want to go through all of the steps to get there.  But then, when you think about it, you have to be inexperienced to be experienced.  So, I need motivation.  Not that hard.  I just need to think up some.

Then, I went and gor officially registered for all of my classes and waited for my uncle to pick me up.  I was waiting for about an hour when I decided I needed to leave.  As I started leaving, these very religious mercenaries tore my life to shreds when they said that homosexuals live in hell worse than everyone else.  They told me that I would never amount to anything.  I would die and be punished for my "choice".  So, I need to work on my choices.

I got to the courthouse, where I was to be meeting my uncle.  I walk in to the courtroom and watch a few cases.  My uncle goes up and gets done with what he is doing.  And on my way out, the district attourney told me that he bets that he will be seeing me there in a couple of years.  I told him it wasn't likely.  But he said he had a good feeling about it.  Again, something I have to work on.  My future.

And when I got home, Animal Control was waiting around to take my dog away.  My dog, Raiko, has officially been taken away by the government because my mother and I cannot find her shot records.  Luckily, we found Wentzton's or else I would be without canines.  At the top of the day, above everything else, I need my dog.  I really do.  I love that dog.  I've had it now for 10 years they said.  We might not even get her back.  They might go ahead and put her to sleep for being as old as she is.

I can't take much more of this.  Someone, anyone, give me some good news.

It's fucking hard to count your gold, when there is nothing but dirt to hold.

Songs to really LISTEN to:

1.  Amy Winehouse-Tears Dry On Their Own

2.  Fall Out Boy-Gay Is Not A Synonym For Shitty (G.I.N.A.S.F.S.)

3.  The Academy Is-Neighbors

4.  Fall Out Boy-Our Lawyers Made Us Change The Name Of This Song So We Wouldn't Get Sued

5.  The Used-I'm A Fake

6.  Fall Out Boy-Xo

7.  The Used-Sound Effects and Overdramatics

8.  Mika-Grace Kelly

9.  Amy Winehouse-Rehab

10.  The Used-Listening

11.  The Hush Sound-Sweet Tangerine

12.  The White Stripes-Icky Thump

13.  Fall Out Boy-Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying (Do Your Part To Save The Scene and Stop Going To Shows)

14.  The Academy Is-We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands

15.  Mika-Love Today

16.  Amy Winehouse-You Know I'm No Good

17.  Mika-Stuck In The Middle

18.  Fall Out Boy-Saturday

19.  The Cure-Why Can't I Be You?

Oh, my God.  The most AMAZING thing of my life just happened.  I opened iTunes and put all of my music on random and these are the songs that played.  In this order.  I omitted no songs at all.  It was so weird.  I have 984 songs on my iTunes.  Why should the random order be like this?  It's pretty fucking weird is all I have to say.  I'm still shaking as I type this. 

Yikes.  Oh, well.  I guess if you wanted, you could get into my creative mindset by listening to these songs in this exact order.  I feel a little creative.  Time to play bass.

Good morrow to all.

Lunitari's Bedtime
Shh, we're waiting. We're waiting for the time to be right. Put your fear away. Come out. Play with us tonight. Under the moon, under it's light, we go out to haunt tonight. Pulling you into the chamber, we see the pain, the fear in your eyes. "Will I? Will I ever see the sun rise?" you say. Again? You think not, I know better. We just want to have our time, our time to be fun tonight. You know, you know how we do? We do, we do better without those people like you? You know? You know? Oh, no! The heartfelt lies you told your lovers? The times you thought you were safe? How does it feel to be alone? Never guessed it, I suppose. There you have it, now you lie, in this stuffing barrier tonight. We go out to haunt this time. Our ancestors built this city with their tears. The trail leads to broken hearts. Not ours. Not theirs. Only yours. You can only fool your self for a short time. You better get on with the truth. For your kind.

My Regards To The Inventor Of Blue Ink
Hold! Halt! Go! Stall! They're making up stories. They're about you and me. Let's create a novel. Let's start up a theme. "Get over your bad mood. Get under the sheets. Stop frowning for nothing. Stop pleasure or release." Turn off the lights. Turn up the sound. Sirens scream by; it's called the afterlife. You've killed one phase, don't you get so proud. Who started this fad in the first place? Put two more crosses on my hands, so I can't drink next to my main man. We'll get over this. Give me a second kiss. Be cautious and I'll try to be courteous. Keep showing the world your secrets. "After the hotel, we'll hit up a mall. Call out lines from a book from a drawer." Sold! Out! Scene! Star! Rock! Long! Live! Loud!

"When I Wear Lipgloss, He'll Make Out With Me More."
No sleep or anything of the sort, here in my study online. Chat rooms have kept me up, but not so late this time. What a mockery! I've posed, you see. Not naked, but nearly shake and faked a bunch of lies on top of this screen. Believe me, you'll never miss me. You can't trust me, I'll always leave. But at least I can still get a rise out of you. At least I can watch the sunset and get chills. Oh, I bet that you do it all of the time too. I never left your head, now did I? I never left your bed, whoa baby! I never even thought to say goodbye. I never even thought to save your life. Ooh, and there we start again with a band. Awfully upsetting, and yet I'm sure that I'm not insane. Why can't you see that I'm using you for every cent? You smell like you never have before. I think I'm scared that I'll never ever, ever get bored. There, it's too late. I'm done, calling it off because you can't commit. Now, we get to the difficulties. Now, you see, we were never meant to be. What do we do now with this calamity? Let's call this quits with a one night stand. Let me use you up one last time, just for laughs.

The Cure For Color
Stop the presses, conversations and a thing we call the media. There's a national emergency that I need to broadcast. "It seems that there's an angry man who's hurt my lost puppy, and it doesn't feel like he'll ever be seen again." Shake yourself out of my head andback into my heart. Shake yourself out of my bed and back into our start. Shake yourself enough, and we'll see just how honest you'll be. After talking to me about your problems, we'll see. How much you've gotten done? Oh, you rotten one. Why haven't you seen? You are the bad type of obscene. I'm out of mind. I'm out of sight. I'm out of sight, out of my mind. We can't stop screaming. Bit my hand and hold on tight. I don't care what comes out of your mouth or what makes you tick. I don't mean to say all these mean things. I guess I'm just tired of you making me sick. Whoa! Down on your fascinating street.

A Talk That Talks For Itself
I'm a breath from drowning. I'm a weak knee from falling apart. I've got melancholy in my veins, and I can see straight for the first time. Oh, it's never felt so right. No, it's never felt so right. Tonight! Tonight! Tonight! Tonight! Tonight! Tonight! Tonight begins a whole episode of drama insuced calamities (and your insanity). It's not your first time, not the last time, that we will have been too tongue-tied to talk (to talk about this to anyone). Oh, I'm social to a point and then, I'm starving for new vocabulary. No one can catch me. I keep sticking to the point, keeping time on key, laying down laws unread, leading both the living and your credibility. Caught your eyes with attention; you're a sucker for dramatic tension.

Walked On Glass
Remember, the days in the park, where we made a work of art (with our bodies). And there I lied, to people and ourselves, making promises still left to be fulfilled. I just can't stop. Just can't stop. Just can't. Can't stop seeing hallucinations or myself shining on in the hearts of men; you know you want it. Catch the buzz, keeping causes for whatever, scarlet. This precocious melody seems to have gotten the best of me; I've never looked at you this way before. I can't make my mind up; please give me some time to say "no". Catching up, your rap sheet has more hangings tha a witch trial, and I can't help but laugh in the face of fear. Crying, but I can't seem to care 'cause I've seen this scene over there, and believe me, it's nothing to get carried away for. Disaster town, quit calling me back; my roots are dead to me. You see, I don't care. I can't care for anyone else, but me. It's vanity at it's best, and I'll probably die by myself. Rotting teeth and ringing bells are the last you'll see of me.
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No one is really dead.  Not in my world.  So, yeah.

Thanks again Melissapirate.  You are amazing!  =]

So, I lost my phone for a little over 24 hours.  I am terribly angry.  But I had it earlier.  And then, I lost it again.  I am such a putz.  Oh, well.  No sense in crying over lost causes.

At another station, I went to a concert the other day at the Marquis Theatre in Denver.  I saw Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Boys Night Out, The Dear Hunter, Pierce The Veil and Four Letter Lie.  I am terribly in love with the scream sound that all of the bands emitted from their vocal cords.  I was mesmerized by the performance.  They were all terrific.  I even got to meet two people:  the bassist from Four Letter Lie and the lead singer of Pierce The Veil.  I was so happy.  Even though I had a pretty shocking run in with some coppers and a few strumpets, I had the time of my life.

I purchased 5 CDs while at the concert.  I have officially decided I need to watch how I spend my money when I go to concerts.  I may just spend every cent the world has to offer on merchandise.  I also went to a few malls, picked out a couple of amazing belts and a Senses Fail CD from a couple of ages ago.  "Let It Enfold You."  I love that compact disc.  I wondered how long I could go without listening to it, but I was defeated awfully quick.  I caved in at about half an hour.  Go will power!

Today, I stayed home.  School resumed, and I stayed home.  Well, that's not entirely true.  I also went to the store.  And out to lunch.  I also decided to pull some weeds, listen to some music, enjoy every minute with myself, get info on 3 different college options, try to apply to an online college, whine about the obvious afflictions, play with a kitty, get to keep the kitty, experience the goodness of being out of school, get into a burping contest with my dog, ogle pictures of Pete Wentz in hopes that he feels me ogling him and use the restroom twice.  I did have some very gross orange juice.  Damn that O.J.!

Congratulations to "Ugly Betty" for having a song of Mika's on the show.  I love Mika.  He is one of my favorite British folks.  I'm putting dishes away right now.  Listening to Mika and Rooney.  Two quixotic bands.  Mmmm...Mika...  You can't see me right now, but I honestly am drooling.  Bleh!

I never noticed it before, but I like to shake my butt when I dance.  Um...Yeah.  That's pretty manly.  =]

"It was so romantic!"

So, I made these as the cover of [the] Blackboard Decals EP that will be out soon.  I don't know which one to go with.  So, give me your feedback.  Um, yeah?

1.  The first of the three was hand-drawn.  So, if this is eventually chosen, all of the pages within the booklet will be hand-drawn.

2.  This is one that is all one color.  If this option is chosen, all of the pages in the booklet will be all seperate solid colors.  Like a rainbow.  =]

3.  Third option.  I think I like this one a ton.  All of the pages will be like this if it is like this.  Of course, it will be variated, but yeah.

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So, yeah.  Take your time!  We value anyone's opinions!

Always young,

John Ortega

You can always change your ways!  Just know that no matter how much you think you are different, there is someone in the world that thinks the same.  And you are together.  If only through thoughts, you are still together.  Alone, together, alone.

Still, I think that most people should give up the bad/sad attitude and start laughing again.  I remember when the people I used to know would laugh at everything, be it a comment or even a horrible joke.  I like to laugh.  And I wish more people would.  Instead of all of this "I'm going to kill myself" crap.  Some people don't know how good they've got it.  I do.  And you should too!

I've had people tell me that they can't be happy because they are sad, and that is completely understandable.  They tell me that when I am sad, I shouldn't cover it up by pretending to be happy.  But I don't pretend anymore!  I count my gold when I get sad!  The memories I have in my head are all that I need to keep on going, and that is what I am going to do.  I'll be famous someday.  I have it in my head that I will.  I won't stop until I reach it.  And I want my friends to make it, too.  If they stay close to me, I will do all that I can to push them to the top of the skyscraper and keep them from the edges.  All I ask in returned is to be liked.  Not loved, just liked.

I had a chat about money earlier today.  I decided I want nothing to do with the stuff.  I want the money that we make at shows divided into 5 parts:  Audrey's, Maddy's, Laura's, Katy's and the band's venture funds.  I don't need a share.  Just as long as I am with my greatest pals, I will live.  =]  You guys mean more than oxygen to me.  I needn't worry about money.  Nor should others.  It is so easy to replace.  All I care about is a place to sleep and how I can entertain the greater good.

Getting angry doesn't solve anything.  Unless you are playing a board game.  When you get mad, you end up tossing the game accross the room, and the game is done.  But why do that?  You have to get off of you butt and pick the game up.  Why not just sit and laugh when you are mad?  Laughing makes people look better anyway!  So, get yourself out there, look better and laugh a little.

Can I help you with something?  I want to make you happy!  Anyone!  Just send me a message or something and I will try my best to cheer you up!  I've made plenty of people chipper.  I want you to end your tears and replace them with smirks.  =]  At another station...

With A Loving Touch,

John Micheal Anthony Ortega III

8 Facts

"...CHORE?!?"  Ha!  I bet you thought the next word was going to be "whore"!  I thought about it, but one should have class when he is degrading someone else!  =]

I wrote most of a song yesterday.  Just updating, I guess.

"Let's get to the restaurant, hitch to the bar; get over magic and sleep on a star."

This is a blog devoted to the greatest, and the worst, of many people.  Enjoy the pictures.

Bill Shatner (young), Actor

Myra Hindley, Murderer;  Ian Brady, Murderer

Mahatma Ghandi, Activist

Jeffrey Dahmer, Cannibal

Betsy Ross, Patriot

Edmund Kemper, Necrophiliac

There are tons more.  I'll be back with worse on some other date.

At another station,

John Ortega

That was what those girls told me the time that I was walking by with Audrey and Wentzton.  I don't really understand why she said that to me.  I don't think that I give off vibes.  Well, of course I give off the 'creep' vibe because I pretty much am.  Other than that, I cannot say that I give off any other vibe for sure...

At another station, I feel really bad about imposing on people, and the meals they share with other people.  I felt really bad yesterday.  And I made Audrey feel bad.  The only word to describe it was pretty much, "tension".  Kind of like a knot in your stomach that you can't make go away, even after taking tons of pills to try to make it go away!  It just doesn't work.  But yeah.  At least my fortune was dandy:  "Change isn't just something that happens to you in life.  Change is life."  It made me think.  But then I thought too hard.  I thought so hard that I thought I shattered my knee.  Then, I realized I just hit the table pretty hard.  Good points about dinner last night:  I was with Audrey, I saw Brianna and Natara, I was exposed to how zaney families are and I started to dance with myself as I walked home.

As I reached home last night, I thought about my grandpa.  He told me once to look behind me sometimes because I will never know if someone is following.  I guess that I have always taken that to heart.  He was such a great old man.  My favorite relative, by far.

I got home and had to clean.  I CLEANED AND CLEANED AND CLEANED!!!  And I rearranged EVERYTHING!  My house is so different now.  I kind of like it.  And my fortune gave me a heads up about it.  I was pretty happy about it all!  =]

I couldn't go to bed after I finished cleaning.  Oh, no!  God forbid, I sleep a moment.  So, I decided to get off my lazy butt and go running.  I went and ran.  And I was gone for about 90 minutes.  I was really proud of myself for running most of the way and walking so little of it.  I only walked when I really needed to catch my breath.  I've never felt so tired.

And with that, I bid my farewell.  "You made your bed; you'd better sleep in it too.  If there's no more light, I might slip in with you."  Original lyric by Blackboarded Boy.

Please, support your underrated bands.  Because we like to party...MARIO PARTY STYLE!!!  With mini-games and Koopas and Princesses and fireballs and Bowser and Yoshi and Luigi and Goombas!!

At another station, (<<<<< that is totally going to be the new "anyway,"!  I swear it will catch on quick!!!)

John Ortega III