I'm baaaaaaaack!

I put the "um" in "dumb".  I put the "less" in "hopeless".  I put the "lie" in "comic relief".

The package.  The one that contained the quilt I made for a special certain someone.  Didn't get there in time.  But I have decided to blame myself.  Had I worked on it steadily, it would have been done much sooner than what it was.  I am a steady moron that doesn't seem to know how to get things done on time or the right way.

The early bird gets the worm.  I guess in this case, I am not the bird or the worm.  I'm going out of my mind a little.  I'm just going to stay home and mope for a while during the day.  I'm still planning on going to Maddy's, but other than that, I want to be left alone.  There are lines in the word lonliness.  Do you see it?

I wish I could write lines about lonliness.  But the truth is, I have never been lonely.  I have always had someone with me, and I will bounce back from this.  And I will laugh later.  Because I am so stupid right now.  Ugh.  I am going to listen to music and try to calm down.  I hope that no one reads this waste of time.  If you loved me, you wouldn't talk to me for a little while.

In his room sobbing,

John Micheal Anthony Ortega III

Young Graduate and Early Failure

Bloody Rufio--Audrey Everett

As early as morning can get is when she strikes.  She will pull her victims from their beds, kiss them goodbye and drown them in a river of water.  She is "Bloody" because of the fact that she drinks the blood of her victims to stay young and beautiful.

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Jazzy Tackett--Katy Bagwell

The moves of this killer seem to coincide the cycles of the moon.  She travels, disguised as a gypsy/musician, and goes from town to town looking for thrills.  As she reaches a town, she finds the nearest bar to play some of her music.  The music she plays differs between the different cycles of the moon.  On every full, quarter, half and third-quarter moons, she finds someone in the bar and castrates them as the night ensues.  On every new moon, she picks up her things, only to go to another town and repeat her actions once again.  The name "Tackett" was formed because of how she tacks the 'piece' in the bar where she played.

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Kate the Slasher--Madison Sipple

As a small orphan, this murderer was often molested by her closest relative, a second cousin by the name of Leland Shorting.  As she grew older, she was given the last of her parents valuables, a pair of antique straight razors.  She bases her murders off of gossip amongst society.  She leads her victims, in broad daylight, anywhere that she can and slices them up with her straight razors.  She loves to leave behind all pieces of the victim.

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'Jack the Ripper'--John Ortega

The classic, inconclusive murderer has finally been uncovered.  Mr. Ripper has gone through a life of horrors and shames that have been brought upon by his birth defect, an inability to love.  He was born with no compassion for life, love or time; he spent half of his time trying to understand what love is.  His studies eventually led to his comprehending that children are the key to love.  If he could have a child, he would find love in them.  But without love, he wasn't able to carry seed for children.  He had sex with as many people as he could to try to conceive, but nothing ever worked.  So, he decided to take his vengeance out on prostitutes.  Prostitutes were able to have children, but they abused their right with countless abortions and meaningless sex.  With that being said, he would lure prostitutes to dark rooms and alleys to hack away at their bodies.  Leaving tons of letters, but no fingerprints, he truly was the greatest of all the serial killers.

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"Catch me if you can, coppers..." --Jack the Ripper 

So, I am listening to that song, "Sexy Love" by Ne-yo.  I like it, I guess.

Anyway, as the story seems to go these days, I have been working on a quilt for a mister by the name of Patrick Martin Stump.  In the process of working on the quilt, I realized that I can make a difference in someone's life.  I really hope that he sees that people love him.  I know I sure do.  My hands have bled because of all the damn sewing and such.  But yeah.  I love my work.

My pal, Jess, went back to Germany today.  She is going to be there for another year.  I am going to be going soon, so I can catch Decaydence Fest.  That would be the greatest ever.  I am also working on a project for Mister Peter Wentz.  I can't tell anyone, but yeah.  It will be cool, and it should be done by the next Flyaway.  I am not going to put it off till the last minute like this time.  Ugh.  I am horrible and proud.

I also did a little recording of my voice today.  Just singing to a swing beat about things around me.  I really like to think in my head.  Not so much telling people what I really think of them.  Ha ha.  You can't spell "Death" without "eat".  I love that!!!

So, this is another pointless blog.  If you want to see the quilt, I just posted pics.  Um...yeah.

"Sor, I send you half the Kidne I took from one women prasarved it for you tother piece I fried and ate it was very nise"

"Sorry, I sent you half the kidney I took from one woman.  Preserved it for you.  The other piece I fried and ate.  It was very nice."

Who else would say something like this?  I love Jack the Ripper

I can't describe what to say.

I have found out that I have fantasies, just like everyone else.

I found out that I can bowl pretty well when I concentrate.

I have been shown the light of fire, and it has moved me.

I realized that there is more than one option to every situation.

I have cried more than once for the same stuff.

I remember when I was a kid and happy.

I have lived a spoiled life, and I'm quite ungrateful.

I feel no remorse anymore.

I have the personality of a piece of canvas; I just lack the acrylics.

I don't care anymore.

And neither should you.  Get over it, kid.  You will always be what you always forced yourself to be...a failure.

"What a dance I am leading..." --Jack the Ripper

He always said it best.  He always was the best.

Well, not yet.  Someday...

Anyway, aside from any awkward conversations about me checking out an ex-substitute teacher, today was a no brainer.  I sat around a lot.  I walked around a lot.  I got to pet Wentzton a lot.  I got to play bass for a bit.  And I got the greatest gift a man can get, his life back.

I've never really known what it was that used to drive me insane about my life.  I knew that there was something wrong with it; I just didn't know what.  But I found it.  I found my niche.  I have found what makes me the angriest of my entire life.  And I am going to eventually get rid of it.

So, this blog was actually made to encourage everyone who reads to open your mind and think of what the one thing is that eats you up inside and kill it.  Put it in a mouse trap and let it flinch as you laugh.  You will feel oh, so much better.  I know I will.  I can't wait.  DIABOLIQUE JOHN is back.  And he is going to be here to stay for a while.  I am in such a hate mood right now.  Just the world wait.

"Just a line to let you know that I love my work..."  --Jack the Ripper

The next time you see me, I'll be mopping your blood off of the pavement.

 Make this boy scream

At the top of his lungs

Make this girl dream

Of songs that haven’t been done, yet

Oh, we’ve got a show to catch

Oh, we’ve got a lover to romance

Oh, we’ve got a number of things

Oh, and I’ve run out of time.

(The chorus to a song I've been working on.)

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So, I'm listening to "Cannibal Girl" by Head Automatica.  I love that song.  Now, I am listening to "I'm A Fake" by The Used.  They make me excited.  Well, things aren't so bad in the world.

This entry is for you, jebertlie, because you asked.  Ask and recieve, I suppose.  My life has been okay...I got the new White Stripes album.  And a ton of new CDs, thanks to Audrey.  Other than listening to music, I do nothing.  Well, I get fatter.  I AM SO BIG!!!

I went swimming yesterday.  At a public pool.  There were so many great bodies there, and mine wasn't one of them.  I am so fat and ugly and putrid and gross and ugh.  I am so disgusted with myself.  I swam for about an hour, put clothes on, begged to go home, and spent 4 hours on one of those chair things, waiting for my family to get thier money's worth.  And I was accused of getting everything my way all the time.  If that was the case, my friends would be at my house right now.  And I would be trying to entertain them with my bass playing.  Someday, I will never be what I want to be.  Relient K isn't such a bad band.  Just a little too religious with their lyrics.  Hmm...

So, I did play bass today.  I can play an A minor scale like no one's business.  I hope that someday I wll get crazy fast and stuff.  Oh, well.

I have doubt in me.  Will I ever get famous like I want?  Will I stay with this same band?  We haven't made much of an effort to do anything.  It has been so long since we began this.  I hate it.  We really need to get something done...  I will always think of what would have happened if nothing does happen.  ;,,,,(

I got a puppy.  His name is Wentzton.  And he doesn't like m right now.  Oh, well.  You can't win them all.  Or in my case, you can't win ANY of them...at all.

Avec ma vie...

"Why don't you like me without making me try," sings the bright new look of inspiration, Mika.  As a matter of fact, he shouldn't have to try too much harder.  The crazy-cool album, Life in Cartoon Motion, is a piece of work that seems to have been taken straight from the pre-Queen era.  It seems that if life was as graceful and melodic as this album, our lives would run in cartoon motion.

With high pitched vocals and smooth sense of musical style, Mika secures his spot in the spotlight and keeps you wanting more.  It is, honestly, as captivating as listening to the late, great Mr. Mercury.  With songs like "Love Today" and "Billy Brown", anyone can listen to the importance of loving Mika and learn about the important life of Billy Brown.  There is so much to say about this album;  the only words I can use are "fantastic" and "enthralling".  And who hasn't heard the first single off the CD, "Grace Kelly"?  The rest of the music sounds like it, smooth and amusing.

I would give this 4 out of 5 stars.  Not that I rate things with stars, but this is seriously a great album.  Go out and get Life In Cartoon Motion!!!

I never thought that I could be someone.  To be honest, I want it more than anything in the world.  You can ask anyone.  I am going to work my hardest to be loved by the world.  I am loved by people right now already.

I now know what it is like to have fans.  People have told me that they love me.  Why?  I'm not that great.  But I am loved.  For doing what?  Talking?  Blogging?  Laughing?  Sure, we don't know each other.  And for some people that like me we do.  But how can you love someone like me?

This is so mind blowing, I don't know how to breathe.  I guess this ends it.  I'll let you get back to your lives.  Thanks for loving and reading.  I will always love you all...

I have the chance to meet Pete Wentz once again.  So, I guess it wouldn't be meeting.  It would be like hanging out.  But I can't afford it.  That really really sucks.

I am done.  I need Pete Wentz to live, like every other person who loves Pete Wentz.  I may not be the biggest fan, but I can't imagine anyother person that loves him more...

I love you.  You know that I still do.  I think about you like I did tonight, and wondered what could have happened.  How much of myself could have changed?  I have no freaking idea.  I still love you though.  I hope you know that.

So, again with the movies and such.  I have the new Mika album, Avril album, Maroon 5 album, Amy Winehouse album and just got Gym Class Heroes' album.  And I also bought Funeral For A Friend's album.  I saw it for 13 bucks and couldn't pass it up.  I don't even know much about them.  Hmm...I should think things through next time.  Anyway, the movies I saw tonight were Catch and Release (lame), Black Christmas (meh), and Memory (OMG!!! AMAZING!!!  BILLY ZANE!!!).  So yeah.  And I also bought the Snakes On A Plane DVD.  I've been meaning to do it for a while, but finally stuck to it.  I am so movie/music updated these days.  It excites me in more ways than one!!!

When I settle down with someone, I will never leave them.  I love so much and promise to them and myself that I won't.  I know it's weird to think about, but I am really big on commitment.  It means a lot to me.  Wow, I sound pretty dumb.

Billy Zane is my hero.  He did a movie called 'Phantom', and he was a super hero.  Ever since I saw him back then, I wanted to be like him.  He was always going to save me if I ever got into trouble.  He is such an amazing person.  Billy Zane makes me want to scream off of a cliff that I love my hero.  It's really weird.  But yeah.  I simply adore that man.  He is my super phantom hero.  Fantastic...

Well, this blog deserves to be done.  I'm glad that not too many people read this stuff.  You would sooner hate me than want to hear more about my life.  So, I love you.  You know who you are.  But you hate me more than I can ever love you.  Thank you for making me want to make people hate you.