I'm baaaaaaaack!

You've got a fever, and it's getting around.  You can't seem to help just fumbling down.  You can't get a girlfriend to save your life, and you can't be contagious with such a low frown.

Give in to giving up.

The insides of your sides keep this song afloat;  the make-up smears down your face.  Don't you think the way you scream will bring some attention our way?  And it's cold, it's cold, cold...

I'll always have a place in my heart for you...the part that I don't care about...

Your window was open last night.  I walked in, made myself at home.  Home enough to get them talking.  So used to sleeping that the blood rush was just a side effect.  There we were, 2 o'clock, screaming, searching for whatever happiness we could find in one another.  And then, there was the other.

The insides of your sides keep this song afloat;  the make-up smears down your face.  Don't you think the way you scream will bring some attention our way?  And it's cold, it's cold, cold...

I'll always have a place in my heart for you...the part that I don't care about...

Love you to death, but make sure I stop breathing before you get the chance.

Give in to giving up.

So, last night was that one thing, the EPYCS banquet.  EPYCS is a community service club that I have been president of for the past two years.  It is a really good club and I've enjoyed it a lot.  And then, I fell to pieces.

There was an award.  It was for the "Most Outstanding Student" from each school.  Our school was first.  Our sponsor, Mark Skinner, talked about how this person had energy and was motivating.  He talked as though he was ready to tell me I am pathetic.  He chose the co-president of mine, Kat.  She has been in EPYCS for only one freaking year and she is a freaking junior!!!  I am GRADUATING TWO YEARS EARLY!!!!  WTF!?!?  But yeah, she was voted for said award by the members in the club.  The last words my sponsor spoke to me before I walked out of the banquet were "You are a very good student, and you are going to be great for years to come."  I left with the only person I can trust and decided I wouldn't be committing to anything ever again.

It always happens.  When people commit to things, they don't get rewarded in the end.  It felt as though I should just shut down.  Then, Madison started telling me that the only reason Kat got the award is because she is "popular".  More like FAKE!!  Ugh.  She will say anything to anyone to kiss up to them, but when it comes down to it, I am real.  If I don't like you, I will tell it to your face.  Many people know this first hand, and maybe that is why I didn't get the award.  I shouldn't be so stupid about it, but I can't help but be angry.  I HATE HER!  She has hated me since we met, and I decided to give her a chance.  SCREW THAT!  I hope she dies.  If she did, I don't think I would be completely heartbroken about it...

But yeah, this is my ranting thing.  I will be posting pictures of JESSE GARNER soon.  He is this guy that you all should hate because he is a douchebag.  and he wears his pants to his waist.  In the great words of Jim Morrison, "People Are Strange"...

Do you hate everyone around you?  Do you want to be known for what you have done so far in life and not what you will not do?  Do you want to die in the arms of the person you love?

Well, I am going to do a personal experience.  I'm going to cut myself from all of my friends and whatevers for a while.  Don't miss too hard while I'm gone.  I wonder what will happen.  To all that are on here, please don't show sympathy.  This is my choice.

And with my personal experience, I have discovered that people are naturally addicted to drama.  I can get rid of it completely and keep it gone.  I hate this 'fad' or whatever it is that people are stuck on.  Just like a fly trap.  It makes no sense why you are so sticky, but you deserve to be stuck to your words.

I'll make you hate me.  :)

today was a good day.  Each day, i keep thinking more and more about fall out boy.  maybe i am pathetic or annoying.  or both.  i go with that.  if you lie you don't deserve to have friends...  if that is the case, i shouldn't have any.  yikes!  that would be sad.  oh, well.  people are much cooler these days than they could ever be.  as well as faker.  people can be awfully fake.  myself included!  no one is an exception.  ugh.  i wish i had medication in my system.  maybe nostalgia would come to a quick halt.  but no.  things just don't happen like that.  you were always on my mind.  through that horrible smell of lavender and the screen of smoke.  you will always be on my mind.

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